Friday, December 31, 2010

Wrapping It Up


"Don't you love farce, my fault I fear"
Send In The Clowns, Stephen Sondheim
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8-VXXZLh2a0&feature=related

Stewart and Sondheim leave me floored. http://www.thedailyshow.com/watch/thu-december-16-2010/9-11-first-responders-react-to-the-senate-filibuster
It is that time of year.  Time for lists.  Wrap ups; body counts.  Who did what well, and who not so much.
Good Stuff:

Carolina Chocolate Drops at HSB
Stanley Jordan
Roy Hargrove
Betty Buckley
Leo Kottke
Kitaro
Pradeep
Ericka
ct
Rose in the Marsh with Ian
Any time spent with Brigid
Up In The Air
Kettlebells

Yoga
Barry's weight loss and progress in taking over his showers


Your good sense in seeking professional help when required

Not so good
That shitty yoga sub recently
Shuttering JMB
Lot of really good and one big really not so good; except change is.  Its gonna happen; you can drive it or have it forced upon you.  Don't forget that.
Goals at the beginning: (1) be amused often;  (2) don't use I and me so much.  Met the former, latter less so.
Goals now:
Do whatever you need to make this work, but don't compromise what you know is right
Drink more water, less wine
32kg bu press before end of year
36kg press
walk the dog more
get Ian transitioned
Spend all the time you can with Brigid and B, will be less though it needs to be more and don't beat yourself up about that.
get better at everything you do


Sunday
CT class, starts with minute of swings to 30 sec rest x 10.  Pounded and good mobility work after.
Monday, nothing, except feet up the wall.  Then headstands.
Tuesday
Presses
5+5 20, 4+4 24, 1+1x2 32
10 front squats, twin 16 in rack
Pullups, 5 28lbs assist, to 3 22
20 tactical lunge, 16kg
x3
20 24kg swings to 1+1 TGU
x5
50 24kg swings x 2
Nothing Wednesday except a shitload of work
Thursday, good, no great, ct class, doing a bunch of stuff would otherwise not.
Today, marsh walk and running around most of the day with Ian.  So fucking cold.
Tomorrow, 120 minute MH ny class.  Start it off right with sweat and heavy breathing; in your dreams.
HNY.  This promises to be very interesting.

Saturday, December 25, 2010

Urban Nomad


"Commuter: one who spends his life In riding to and from his wife; A man who shaves and takes a train, And then rides back to shave again."
E.B. White

Self-described as in title for past 30 months.  Determined adherence to public transport resulted in one long ass commute for a big chunk of time.
In three working days (or at least office days; they are all working days) gonna lop at least 30 minutes off that sucker each way, an hour a day.

What will you do with that hour ?


Tuesday.  MH stiff guy late.  Been a long time since MH class and we are gonna spend an hour on hamstrings.  It is slow and anyone who has done this for any time knows slow is much harder if one is paying attention.  No cheating with momentum or swift changes.  Has us in high lunge, weight on front and straight liftoff to warrior three, arms back along body, elevated leg straight back, toes to the back wall and weight bearing straight, rooting down through the heel; this is a hamstring class folks.  That all goes awesome and he mutters "nice dt" as he goes by but turns shaky coming out straight up with foot now out front.  It is one of the best things about yoga, moments of complete mastery followed seconds later by moments of complete clodhood.  Hey, that's like a lot of life  "duh;" all in all really good class.
Wednesday.  Insanely busy this week which is right how I like it.  Going to 6:00 and could easily bail but not gonna happen.  Go in like this
Burpee to three pushups to suitcase deads, twin 24, x5
10 front squats, twin 16 in rack
10+10 rows, 65lb dumbbell
30 forward lunges, body weight
x3
2+2TGU x 2 24kg
Coach Dos circuit, 16kg
x2
Going really slow on the TGU.  Kid  a bit more than half my age comes up; digs the TGU.  He is very fit but no Kbell experience.  He picks up the TGU quick and I've heard it taught so manner times can fall into the patter fast.  Trainers and clients stop to watch, bridge, leg swipe, ankle knee hand in line, swipe back from there its a lunge, up, keep shoulder sucked down and back down.  He is pretty happy and I give him ct's name to google and fix whatever I've done to him; it feels good to be old and have young guy coming up for pointers.
Thursday, home but working.  Pact with Ian and Rose is 7:45 walk and it is just butt ass cold in the marsh, phone says 38 degrees.  Starts going off at 7:50 and I am one of those assholes on the phone out in nature but I gotta do this.  Walk takes over two hours stopping for calls and emails and Ian is fit to be tied.  Tough shit kid; I explain to him why it is important and he chills a bit.  We head to 4th street for Christmas shopping but I am working all the time.  Brigid can't stand the folkart craft type stuff but lights up when I buy her an eight pound shot to practice with and she lobbies hard for a heavy bag; that's my girl.  Get home, spend three hours getting tree up, 48 hours to spare.  They are older now and say they don't care anymore - I know better.
Friday.  Haul everyone over to Berkeley and Telegraph ave for shopping.  Fuck the malls, let's do this.  They have a ball.  In and out of record stores and macabre t shirt stalls, C having fun with the artists.  Barry wowed.  Back at 3:00 and pass out for 40 minute, after picking up one more round of guest animals, a terrified cat and a meek chihuahua puppy for Brigid to bond with.
An hour later, contemplating a scotch.  Don't do it: do something else first:
warm up with ten dolphin to dolphin plank, 10+10 16kg one arm swings x 3
Presses
5+5 24kg to 1-3 28kg ladders
10 16kg bootstrap squats
10+10 28kg rows
10 24kg goblet squats
First circuit sucks, really bad.  I fail on the first 28kg single.  If you are not gonna pay attention, go sit on the couch and drink scotch; you can't skate your way through 28kg press ladders at age 51 so be mindful.  Drill it down through the ball of the foot.  Pay attention to your eyes.  Better and by the third circuit MUCH better.
Fry my ass swing session, 45/35, 30 rep pace, 24kg x 10.
Good roast chicken dinner and wrapping.
This morning.  Unwrapping joy.
Into marsh early pm.  Ian and I with Rose.  It is dumping hard.  We are huddled under the massive umbrella, wet and walking.  I am reminded of last year on the 24th, when I pulled out of the parking lot at Target to see otters rocketing out of the western edge.  Where is my peak experience  ?  Yes, how will you wow me now ?  But no real expectation.
We are on the last leg.  We are soaked with the dog ecstatic.  On the eastern edge of the Rowland cinema parking lot there is a sweet little ecotome.  In 100 feet we go from Cattails to Willows to Alder.  Beyond that are railroad tracks, blackberries, asphalt, and 13 mediocre movies.  It is Christmas, the parking lot is full, but we have not seen another soul, save MMWD guy making double over time checking the stability of the levees in this deluge.
We are 200 yards from the asphalt when Ian points out the flash of wings from a pair of Green Herons.  We look closer and it slowly dawns on us we are seeing something awesome.  Stacked in that thin band between water and popcorn are at least two dozen Green and Black Crowned Night Herons.  They are hunkered down against the weather, in this most meager of shelter.  Ian starts the count out.  He stops at 15 but that is just what we see easy.  He asks, "where is your good camera."  For years he has chastised me about the time it takes to stalk the shot and here we are, in the rain, with only a fucking Iphone 4 and what is nothing less than the Serenghetti on a good day.  And he wants to know, despite the wet, mud and discomfort, where is the long lens.  Thank you my son, my thoughts exactly.  We walk the track though we can't wait for shelter.  We flush half the flock and catch some shitty video.  I go home and roast awesome pork and feed the fam.  I am going to remember this day forever; the day Brigid gave me a Grateful Dead T-Shirt and B wore his mask and Ian and I got cold and wet.
I love all of you.
 I mean it, so here is this.  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3uUHjfamdFo
Merry whatever you choose this time to be.

Monday, December 20, 2010

Teenagers


"What's so Funny 'bout Peace, Love and Understanding ?"
Nick Lowe  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P7txCdLCP9U&feature=related

In the thick of it, surrounded.  They are big, but still kids.  Funny as hell.  Someone said to me this week, it's awesome they are engaged in critical thinking.  Why should they not be; their parents are educated.  Many educated parents I was told, they just don't care.
Don't care ?  Why did you wipe their asses, pick them up, drop them off, hug them when they were screaming in the night, sing to them, read with them and now watch for the sly cue.  Teenagers are not a hassle, they are a joy.  They are the culmination of whatever you did before so if you got a problem look in the mirror.  Can't enjoy it, your loss.

Brigid turned 15 yesterday, sigh.

Tuesday, 15/15 16kg snatches, seven rep pace x 50.
Wednesday, three miles and a bunch of gtg stuff on single/twin 20kg jerks
Thursday, do this, do it now
10 front squats, twin 16's in rack
MP, 5+5 20, 4+4 24, 1+1x2 32
5+5x2 sls, 16kg bu on second fives
5+3 assisted pull-ups, 28 then 22
3x
Swings
15/15 10 32 x 5x2
alternate with 50 24kg
Friday, nothing.  Head mining and gotta get back to carpool the freshman girls to lousy ass local college basketball game.  Its fun, I'd take those kids anywhere.  I am the only adult to stay save the coach.  Local team getting killed.  Girls mildly interested.
Saturday
Marsh walk with Ian and the dog in the spitting rain.  Pull in to coffee shop to take warmth with, flat tire.  Changing in the mall parking lot, beats the hell out of having it go the night before in the pouring rain on the freeway with a car full of teenaged girls.
Brigid B ball, she sits until 2 minutes left, comes on, scores four, they win by four.  Wake up.
Later, bring it:
10 24kg goblet squats
1-5 24kg press ladders, both sides
20 16kg tactical lunges
10+10 28 kg rows
3x
20 24kg swings
1+1 tgu
x5
30 28 kg swings x 2
20 28kg swings x 2
Listening to Choctow Bingo
Sunday
Brigid's Bday  at John's.  He cooks  mean prime rib and we eat way too much red meat and drink too much red wine. 
She is 15 now.  Hold on, we are going for a ride.
Today.
Teenagers are out of school which means I can get in early.
Two miles in am, then to gtg bu practice.
Maybe it's the red meat night before, but throw up a clean 24kg bu mp left.  New and big PR.  JH working with a client nearby mutters nice after it was real close a minute earlier.  Practice 32kg bu cleans on the right, they are sticking, it is only a matter of time before 70lbs goes upside down over the head.
Fucking grind of a day.  There is no going out slow; barely time to breathe and fly out late.  Missed Pradeep class, ok, circuit sessions, go
20/20 10 pushups x 8
10 twin 16 front squats
Pullups, 5 28lb assist , 3 22lb
20 16kg tactical lunges
x3
15/15 10 rep 32kg swings
25x4 24 kg swings
15x2 32kg swings
One set 20's
Halfway through all that, Costello comes on in the gym, doing Nick Lowe's tune above.  I never plug in anymore, too dangerous.  So good music is a fluke, great is a gift.
Get home.  Upstairs to watch Buffy Season 4 with Brigid.  Barry slides in and we are curled up comfy.
I'll take it.  Yeah, they are a real pain.
Nick when he was young; feeling it.  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dBzL6_jagmA

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

Quality Movement


 "Ain't no power in the 'Verse can stop me . . ."
River Tam, Firefly, War Stories

Saturday afternoon pull up to the Hotel Tomo.  A dozen cheerful Cubans are milling about on the sidewalk, members of the wildly popular charanga group, Los Van Van. Supposed to drive leader, JF, across the bay to KPFA.  Band members seem to be living on Sutter street, 'cause they all smoke and can't do it in their hotel rooms.
Fifteen minutes in the white zone, no sign of JF.  A tall young man sticks his head in the window and says he is the manager.  He knows nothing about any interview; he and two others are going to lunch.  He stalks off authoritatively down Sutter; they are done with any interview.
Two much older men with two women come up and smile politely.  The men are shabbily dressed.  The women look bored.  They speak no english.  After a good-natured round of sidewalk charades I figure out they want to go to Walmart to buy pants.  The nearest Walmart is miles away.  Since we are not going to KPFA, I can run them up to Jeff's Jeans at 16th and Geary.  This is purely selfish; that store is run by a rapacious russian grandmother and the prospect of her and these Cuban gentlemen together is too much to resist.  I tell 'em I know a place; they clap appreciatively and we are off.
We pull away from the curb; call comes in from transpo coordinator.  I explain about no notice no interview, and the shopping trip.  He says no side trips.  Right, no side trips.  Fuck it, we are on our way.  My passengers get this and stay quiet giggling and murmering "special driver, special driver." The phone rings again two minutes later and I am told to haul it back to Tomo to talk to the manager, Hugo, about the interview.  We abort the unauthorized shopping excursion but the warm hand on my shoulder confirms no hard feelings.
White zone for another ten minutes until manager Hugo comes out.  Hugo is not the guy lunching on Fillmore.  Hugo tells me to sit tight, JF is up in his room.  They are trying to convince him to come down for the interview.  I sit in the white zone trying to figure out if 7% is usurious, may as well bill some time.
Hugo reappears after ten minutes.  Interview is supposed to start in five.  He advises no interview, JF is not feeling well.  Thank you very much.  Let transpo guy know.  Sit in white zone a bit longer, doing email.
Hugo comes racing back out, JF is eating, he will be down in five minutes.
Ten minutes later, five Cubans pile into the van.  Young short guy says he is the manager, Javier.  They will go now to the interview.  I call transpo guy:  "we are off to KPFA."  "You have JF ?"  "Maybe, I have five, three guys and two women but I have no idea if any are JF.  I do have the third guy who claims to be manager in the last hour, Javier."  45 seconds later, get the call.  Too late for KPFA.  Ok.  I have been at this for 90 minutes.  I have driven about ten blocks.  I have met three guys who claim to be manager, and two guys who want to buy pants.  I may or may not have met JF.
I drop them off, they smile and waive appreciatively.
Time for some research.  I google JF.  I get pictures, I have not met him today.  I read an NYT review of the Los Van Van show on Tuesday night in NY.  JF was not there.  JF may not be here either.

I am wondering if JF even made it on the flight from Cuba.

Come back around 7:00 to get them to the gig.  They pile in.  Walmart pants guy is looking very very sharp.  Leather jacket, silk slacks and carrying a guitar case like he was borne attached to it.  His jeans run pal is in a white linen suit.  White linen nods that it is ok and hands me his trombone case to put in back while he helps the turned out ladies with their spike heels into the van.  He has the sort of grace only older Latin Gentlemen can pull off.  There is a guy off to the side in white jeans and a windbreaker who looks at me and waves quickly; it's JF.
We get to the club.  Hand trombone guy his case after he makes sure the ladies are safely out.  Guitar/Walmart pants guy clasps my forearm and puts his arm around my shoulder:  "if no see you again, very nice to meet."
It's late and I can't stay for the set.  Catch first few tunes, they pop.
Get home and watch TV with Brigid.  Ian comes out around 11:00 and asks me what I think of Assange.  I say Assange is a total dick; but you ought to hear Los Van Van.  He grins and we talk about the First Amendment, the role of government, expectations, naivete and danger.  Then we watch Bored to Death.  Not.
Wednesday, nothing save meet with new partners.
Thursday
20 incline pushups. 10+10, one foot up and switch.
10+10 Bulgarian split squats,
5 + 3 neutral grip pull-ups,  28/22 lbs assist
20 Skier plate swings, 45lb plate.  Had not done for at least a year, 35 way too light.
3x
Coach Dos circuit
10+10 woodchoppers, 35, slow, deliberate, and hard.  Watch angle of arms, shoulders locked down, extend fully and way out, no cheat.
3x.
Great workout.
Friday
Work, then head mining, exhausting.
Gonna go do this anyway, 60 minutes Pradeep.  It's a pretty easy class but I am rung out and psychically spent.  I can only hold Crow for three long breaths, and Pradeep comes over runs his hand down my back and chants softly.  That and "you have all you need, do this" gets me through but it is rough.  Head to Japantown to meet the Cubans; delightful people, single scotch and home.
Saturday
Good walk with Ian early, and Brigid B-ball.  Her coach does not realize her talent; he is mired in small town bullshit politics that dribble all the way down to frosh girls basketball.  She is at the 105th percentile in PE.  She has killed the district competition in field events at the District level three years running and been at the top in County for two.  She can't wait for her PE final tomorrow, she says school records will fall.  But he has her on the bench cause he has known the parents of the starters all his life.  I am going to straighten him out, gently.  It will not involve heavy iron, I think, maybe.  It might if necessary.
Sunday
Marsh walk with 5 and Dina and the dogs.  Dina is tripping over her dog baby; 5 is telling her to breathe deep and I am trying not to laugh.  Office for four hours, then into CT at 6:30.
Now this is good.  She has been in a z seminar for four days.  We focus on micro movements, yeah I am strong but I cannot even find my fucking ankle joint for two minutes.  We do press work and eye position and I am pumped.  G pays attention to me and I am grateful.  He points out swing problems, I am froggy at the knees due to turned out ankles, and its worse with the lighter swings and he is a real help.
CT has us doing what the z folks call ball of the foot circles.  Very similar to MH instruction on one foot stuff in yoga.  But screwing the foot into the floor coupled with oppositional eye movement applied to heavy presses really works.  At the end of class I throw up the 32 right, and that is better but still muscled through.  But 32 left goes up like helium, even though I feel farther out and further back than I would have thought comfortable.  Pop.  Wow.
Today.
Long long office day filled with transition drama.  I adore ko, her competence and sincere desire to save me from myself.  She has helped me for so long, and she has been through so much.  That we have not communicated clearly (or at all) gives me a fair amount of pain.  Recurrent theme.
Pradeep late.  Just bring it.  It is hard, stay strong.  Extended plank stuff (he really digs that), screwing arms into the floor, he is saying "push the floor away."  I am doing the same thing with my arms we were doing with feet the day before.  Drill it down and push up; you sink into nothing.  Crazy strong and gloriously wrung out at the end.

You have this body, you have this head.  The body feels so simple; head, not so much.  And that is simply a function of training.  It's the same thing; figure it out.  You have all you need.  Do this.

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

Unsquare Dance

"We don't know the power that's within our bodies"
Dave Brubeck
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BwNrmYRiX

Dave turned 90 yesterday.  Still playing; just finished three nights at the Blue Note.
Jay had Time Further Out when we were growing up.  As a kid in elementary school I'd spend evenings curled up with the cat listening to that one and Monk's Dream.  Take Five is not on Time Further Out but could not find a complete video of Unsquare Dance, my favorite from that album.  Happy B-Day Dave, very glad you are still with us.

Tuesday, nothing.  Grinding.
Wednesday, more grinding then gym late like:
10 twin 16kg front squats
MP 5+5x20, 4+4x24, 1+1x2 32
sls 5+5bw, 5+5 16kg in rack bu
10+10 65lb dumbbell rows
Front squats loaded were great, had stumbled upon mc's blog post with (now former RKC) ww demoing http://www.begin2dig.com/2008/08/kettlebell-front-squat-micro-master.html and have shied away since aggravated disc injury three years ago last March with cute little12kgs.  Twin 16's are now fine, stay tight and no hint of a problem.  Rack position beats Goblet squats every time; much more natural to keep chest up and shoulders down, particularly with my stiff shoulders;
3x
15/15 10 32kg swings, 1+1 24kg tgu x 5
50 24 kg swings
15/15 10 32kg swings x5
50 24kg swings
Need longer swing sets, and the 50's good.

Thursday, two miles
Friday, ramped up work/head fest and Pradeep is teaching in Hawaii, nothing.
Grinding all weekend for arb Monday.  Sitting at table all day, force up for Saturday snatch fest
15/15 seven rep pace, 16kgx52
Take Ian in for 10:00 Mike Stern show.  Anthony Jackson, Randy Brecker.  Wow.  Ninety minutes of non-stop blow it out.  Yeah guys, we are gonna take you for a ride, and they did.  I'd heard Stern compared to Jeff Beck, but that does Stern a huge disservice.  No way Jeff plays like that; have not heard anyone play like that, turns Miles' Jean Pierre from a slow grind to a blow out romp.  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ICZHgTh5pi8&feature=related.  I like it both ways; Miles with a young Marcus Miller.  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BSKow6i0qiY&feature=related
Ian and Mike look like soulmates . . .

Scary ya ?
More Mike.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f7IOqS4nxnQ
Nothing Sunday but work and rain, plan 5 walk by 4 but its raining and only half through prep so Rose gets screwed and I stay dry.
Monday, up very early after little sleep.  Out to Walnut Creek for arb.  NPR piece on stress reduction and breathing, nothing new but good to be spoon fed.  http://www.npr.org/2010/12/06/131734718/just-breathe-body-has-a-built-in-stress-reliever.
Seven hours of arb.  Garrulous witness on direct, but crosses really tight and hopefully effective, won't know until February but it was fun.
Fried walking out but head in for workout.  Not a good idea.  I start with a few cleans but the kettlebells don't seem like a good idea; cortisol and adrenaline is a bad cocktail.  Head into what would be Pradeep's class but he is doing retreat work in Hawaii so there is a sub I don't like the looks of.  Class one of the worst exercise experiences of my life.  Music too loud, guy talking way too fast and too soft.  Half the time he was talking to the floor and the other half to the walls.  Trying to keep up with disembodied hyper-mumbling overlain by synthesized middle-eastern music.  In corpse pose white boy starts chanting, skip it dude.  I want to throw sweaty towels at him; I did not think it was possible to leave a class more stressed at the end than the beginning, but he achieved it.
Get home late and bark at Ian, not good.  I am unhappy cause spent 16 hours working in family room all weekend and no one even looks up when I walk in.  C finally asks how it went at about 11:30.  What the fuck did you expect David?  Flowers and a parade ?  No, but some interest would have been nice.
Get up very early and cook Ian's potluck contribution to try to make myself feel better.
Today.  Pick up all the shit I have not done for four days or longer.
Gym.  I want this to be good, was, after a bit:
10 front squats, twin 16
5+5 20kg, 4+4 24kg, 1+1 32kgx2
10+10 step back lunges, twin 12kg
 pull-up, 5, 28lbs assist, 3 22lbs
Presses, bad to start.  As bad as they were good the week before, at least the 32, can always get through the lead up, 32 is where rubber hits road.  But I know its not strength but form.  Cracks me up when left is easier, that's a lesson.  Get serious and by third circuit its going up much better both sides.
Assist on pullups programming in movement; basically gtg circuit.
15/15 32kg swings, ten reps x 5;
50 24kg swing
x2.
Uh-huh.  7:20 boat.  Watching John Stewart re-runs while dog snores and Brigid works.  Bliss; we don't know the power, but it sure is nice nice to find it.  Don't take it for granted.

Tuesday, November 30, 2010

Awesome


"Nothing to tell now, let the words be yours, I am done with mine."
 Cassidy, John Perry Barlow

The Dead playing it.  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LH8aPu-W_ZM
Barlow on it.  http://www.litkicks.com/BarlowOnNeal

Awesome are all the people who post good covers.  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sdckin2EnEI; http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9w_Y6xgzN2E; http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RycKSb1mxsw
Awesome is good writing from people who I'd otherwise have no access to.  http://authenticstrengthtrainer.blogspot.com/2010_08_04_archive.html
Awesome is all the easily accessible nostalgic shit that reminds me I grew up in a great time.  See Cassidy above.
Awesome are smart people use social media well.  http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?ref=profile&id=100000035362998#!/OfficialElizaDushku
Awesome is being able to respond to a post, and meet world class artists as a result.  http://www.yoshis.com/sanfrancisco
Awesome is watching folks just stretch out and serve up good info, unpacking their heads in public.  http://www.begin2dig.com/ 

Awesome is the random connection.  Like AP's blog.  http://amypagnotta.blogspot.com/  I found it about eight months ago, trolling.  It was late; I was kinda drunk.  I liked her photos and layout and the way she put things.  AP seems to do many things, all of them quite well, but I think her day job is journalist/producer.  We exchange some comments back and forth and become casual virtual acquaintances.  I send her stuff like Guy Clark video and Richard Brautigan readings and she has not blocked me yet.  (And as cool as the below is, read AP's post from 11/26:  " in sickness, figure it out yourself. in health, we may chat"  gasp, hard left to the gut . . .)
Last week she throws out on her comments:  hey, I'm interviewing Salman Rushdie, what do I ask him ?  I suggest a couple of softballs to get him talking, like "what makes you optimistic ?"  So she uses it and gets a thoughtful response which resonates with moi, deeply.  To quote her post:


"i got to chat with him for 45 minutes in a closed room with just my camera guy. it was awesome. we talked about all kinds of things including my favourite subject- whether or not an objective reality actually exists... fellow lion david barry wanted to know what rushdie's optimisitc and pessimistic about and he gave the following answer:
I studied history and one of the things you learn as a historian is that the future is never what you think it's gonna be. You can be optimistic about the future and a calamity is around the corner. You can be pessimistic about the future and things turn out much better than you expect. The truth is, the only thing you don't know is what's going to happen because what really happens is always an amazement. If you think about the collapse of the Soviet Union in 1989, I would guarantee that twelve months before that, nobody could've forecast it would've happened. There was this thing which looked like a solid tyranny standing there with a whole apparatus of repression and gulags and the KGB and this and that, you know, and then suddenly one day poof, it blows away like wind. I mean the surprise of the collapse of the Soviet Union is sort of what I'm talking about. History surprises you. Right now I think, for instance, it's quite easy to look at the future and think that the world is a bit bleak right now, and that things are not going very well. It's a world of great conflict and disagreement and argument, dissention, it's a world of intolerance and bigotry and so on. It's easy to see all that corruption and easy therefore to think that things'll just get worse. But actually, they may get much worse than we fear [he laughs]. Or they may get much better. In a way, it's an optimistic thing: you cannot foresee the future. There's a famous old, in the days that Marxism was fashionable, there was this woderful phrase where what you were supposed to have was pessmimism of the itellect and optimism of the will. And I think that's a perfectly reasonable position. You can be gloomy about how you think things are going but you should be optimistic about your ability to affect them.
 So how fucking awesome is that ?  A bit drunk late one night I stumble on a smart person's blog and get to, as a result, in effect, ask Salman Rushdie a question ?  And his answer, including:  "The truth is, the only thing you don't know is what's going to happen because what really happens is always an amazement"  is pretty much what I live on these days; I don't walk around spinning in circles but I have been absolutely amazed at some of the events of the past few years and am completely optimistic, in the face of some damning evidence to the contrary, that I can effect positive change.  Why should it be otherwise ?  As Barlow says above:  "Some things don't change. People die. Others get born to take their place. Storms cover the land with trouble. And then, always, the sun breaks through again."
Can we "like" this any more ?  I think not.

Saturday, still at Dillon beach and its a rainy day.  Up in the sun room napping and watching Barry work on a puzzle.  It's a lazy day, but force it out to the garage in the cold dark for:
15/15 16kg seven rep pace x 50, snatches.  25 minutes of straight snatch work that goes really really well.
Sunday, two hours of clean-up out the door, Stationhouse cafe for lunch.  Hit home by 2:00, tired but need to get away from all other humans, so Rose and I go out into marsh where it is freezing cold, need socks for the vff.  Got the 300mm working again but no opportunities.
Monday, fuckin a its back to the work world.  Leave suburbs early, hit gym in am like:
Burpees to three pushups to suitcase dead with twin 24s x 5
10 24kg Goblet squats
5+3 neutral grip pull ups, 22lbs assist
30 walking lunges, bodyweight.
3x

15/15 32kg swings, ten reps x 5
5+5 20kg windmills
10+10 37.5lb woodchoppers
3x, save last set of swings were 30/30 24kg at 20 reps

PM, Pradeep sweatfest.  Tough class and about 40 minutes in he has us in Dolphin plank for ten count, up to plank for ten count, descending ladder back and forth like that down to 1.  That was close to two minutes in plank after some extended series prior and entire class was thoroughly smoked.

God I felt great this morning though.  Long work day, rough mediation and grind.

Day off, to pick up again tomorrow.

Saturday, November 27, 2010

White Haired People Dancing

"It seems the simple things, the hardest to explain . . ."
Dave Mason, Shouldn't of Took More Than You Gave
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Xj2h0LSTY3U
Sunday, three mile marsh walk. Want to hit ct before Yoshi's with 5, but he bails and end up making no one happy. Familiar territory. 5 and I go see Dave. It's hit or miss with the more senior rock star contingent, but not Dave. Voice has lost nothing, powerful as ever. Guitar chops unscathed by time. There are older guys with much younger women, by like 30 years. Dude, are you nuts ? Neither look happy.  But there are also the older folk, hippie dancing to Dear Mr. Fantasy. Fit women well-dressed with white hair, a good ten years older than moi, moving beautifully to all those familiar songs.
Monday, long day in one of the most emotionally wrenching depos in memory. Creep into Pradeep at the end for a good blow out. Not sure i am gonna handle it but it goes good; will probably be it for yoga for the week, so throw it down hard.
Tuesday, another long day. Into ct at 7:30. 30 min scheduled but it goes longer and all for good. It's 200 20kg one hand swings, 100 28kg two hand swings, plus 78 push presses, 20kg, save last 14 with 24. Some hard row work, then hot chocolate and good company.
Wednesday, work scramble and off to Dillon Beach to visit dysfunction junction for four days.
Thursday, beautiful if cold in West Marin. We hit the beach with Rose in am and give her much surf play. I escape with kettlebells mid afternoon. Find a flat spot road side, goes like:
20/20 10 incline pushups off of marine terrace rock formation, heckled by cows x 8.
10+10 28kg rows
Think I am going to press but it's no good. Form is just fucked, all shoulder and no lat. Even 20kg feels shitty, don't even try. Go to meathead 28/32 deads.
60 sec mtn climbers.
x3
Add a bunch more incline pushup sets to bring to 120, then go to swings.
It's 20 swings to rows to bring those to 100, then Tgus.
Have not done Tgus for over a week, know I'm gonna pay and do for four sets. Then 30/30 with the 28x4 to close it out.
Go and feed excessively; Brigid seizing control from a bunch of culinary control freaks to roast the best turkey in memory. Get out of her way people.
Friday. Work most of morning to mid-afternoon; email polite but firm letters out and then hit the soft west marin coastal trails. Ian and I walk Rose past the gate where the Nazis stickered my car the day before. We take Rose off leash and pad toward the isolated beach 45 minutes away. If there is a better substrate for vff than this dense undulating coast I'd like to find it. We spend two hours walking and throwing a stick for the ecstatic Labrador. Work calls on the way back up; playing pro from Dover while perched on the western edge, send Ian and Rose ahead; they don't need to hear it. Come back to Sara and Pats huge crab feed.

Satellite tv sucks.

Saturday, November 20, 2010

WTF

"They call it Pork . . ."
Evil Cat to the Pig, Babe

The National Park Service wildflower chart has poppies blooming January through August.  Never seen them before February in the Bay Area, but through August sounds right.  Before Sunday I had never seen poppies blooming in November as above.  Nor had I ever seen a king snake this late as Brigid and I did on Saturday, basking in the very warm sun on the south levee.  Nor have I ever experienced a November evening as warm as Monday's in downtown SF.    

Parkour soreness left nothing but gimping around with Ian on Sunday.
Monday, start very early
20/20 10 push ups x 8, really strong until last set of eight
10+10 standing rows, 65lb dumbbell
8 squat to press, 90lb barbell
12 step back lunges, 40lb on shoulders
3x, ten push-ups 2, 3
30/30 20 24kg swings x 10

evening, hour long Pradeep class
Felt great after double session, missed that lately, felt leaner almost instantly
Tuesday, nothing after seven hours of depositions and head fried
Wednesday, early am
8 burpees to push-ups (x 2), to twin 24kg suitcase deads
10 24kg goblet squates, slooow and hang out down there for awhile
Strict mp presses, 5+5 20kg, 4+4 24kg, 1+1x2 32kg
5+5x2 sls, second round 12kg bu
3x, 32 kg press failed second reps both sides third circuit

Coach Dos circuit which is
5+5 figure 8 to bu hold
5+5 cleans
5+5 press
5+5 windmills
10+10 snatches
10+10 swings
16kg, it is almost five minutes of straight work with a pretty light weight and it's fun.
10 reverse pull-ups off of smith machine
3x
Done by 8:50, in for outstanding BASF seminar on law and motion tips where all three panelists (including Busch) reaffirmed observations in STFU.

PM, back for late MH yoga, very slooww hard  class; 7:20 boat north rung out and strong.

Thursday, 30 minutes with CT and Renee A., 25 minutes no break like:
5-1 swings to 1-5 GS descending swings/ascending GS
10 wall push-ups
x3
10 swings to 2 20kg gs x5
10 push-ups
x3
adds up to something like 65 goblet squats and I hate those things.  This was really fun though and I like working out with those two, otherwise so solitary.
Friday, meetings most of day, no sweat.
Today marsh walk and running around, talking to Ian about stuff like this . . .
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pbDzob84Tok
 Brigid playing with phone:


Rose rolls

Now the game is almost over and Cal is getting stomped as expected.  So whatcha gonna do ?  Gonna get off your ass or just stare at the fire ?
It is raining hard out and lightening and thunder sounds like it is pounding Burdell just to the north, shove the hot toddy weather thoughts back,  haul bells into the den, amazing how fucking heavy; just do this:
10+10 28kg rows
10 24kg goblet squats
1-3 24kg, 1-3 28kg press ladder
10 deads with 32/28
3x
30/30 20 swings x 10, alternate 28/24


Cooking this to take to Anne's while doing that:
Roast rack of pork with butternut squash, apples, potatoes, roasted peppers and onions.  Absolutely outstanding; yup, Martha Fucking Stewart, that's me . . .

Saturday, November 13, 2010

Small Price to Pay For Beauty

 "I can't help you Sundance . . ."
Butch to the Kid, early on . . .

Did not exercise Wednesday.  Too busy early and way fried late.  Arrived home Wednesday round 7:30 after round two of interviews with mid-size law firms trying to fill excess space.  Ugh.
Darling daughter bounces in shortly after, plunks her beautiful self on the bed and spends two solid hours talking.  She is so bright and locked into her strengths; spinning about grades, school, what she wants.  I was sooo clueless at her age and she is such an old soul.   Never wanted to not disappoint someone so much.  She tells me all her friends' parents are so old, even those younger than me by a decade, but she sees that I can still move well.  "Will you come to do parkour with me on Saturday ?"  Could I not ? What do you do it for anyway, if not for this ?
Three miles Thursday and long day full of work and necessary drama.
Friday, in early throwing down the gauntlet we all knew damn well would be picked up by the afternoon, just needed to work hours well into Thursday night at 350.00 per to get people thinking about what a real shitstorm would look like; with some people you don't get to skip the playground part.  Opposing counsel backpedaling by 11:00 am, flip it back to the transactional types by 1:00, my role as horse head in the bed finished.  Clean up other stuff all day then into therapist session and then  gym.  Cortisol levels last three weeks are off the fucking charts and that does not make for strength.  Spent after an hour exploring my inner me; worthwhile, but gym after no good.  Start it though like this:
10+10 24kg floor press flip to ten pushups
10+10 TRX step back lunges
Presses, 5+5 20, 4+4 24, 1+1x2 32, actually had failed reps on right side third set
20 walking lunges, twin 35db
3x
30/30 24kg swings, 20 x10
That is a good but not blowout workout.  Heading north after stuck in nasty traffic, barely getting Brigid to B Ball by 8; could have done 2.5 of Pradeep and been better off.

Some thoughts after a difficult week:


-If you have spent some time on a road and are at cross-roads, you damn well owe it to those who you have brought with you, to those you have met, and those you will meet, to come to a clear understanding of why you are where you are before choosing a direction.  You can't do this alone, and are kidding yourself to think you can.  To do anything else is to be a terrorist; unexploded ordnance with feet.
-Corollary: acting on impulse is for teenagers.
-Have the balls to look in the mirror and admit your shortcomings.
-Don't hurt innocent people.
-Don't tell people what their priorities should be.  You have no fucking clue unless you have lived their lives.  Your decisions give you no license to think you can inform others.
-If necessary, acknowledge that you misjudged people.  Don't beat yourself up about it.

Yeah, should have gone to yoga . . .

Saturday; parkour with Brigid.  A blast; jumping  off of vaults to hang off window ledges, up walls to hang off 4X4's, fun fun fun.  Could do much fine and improvement by end of class on weak points namely vaults on left side.  Then to three miles marsh walk, Brigid and I movingly gingerly.

The White pelicans left at last for the Winter.  They were here a week ago; Ian and I commenting that it seemed late.  Gone now for Mexico.  Much will be better by the time they return.

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

STFU


“Don't play what's there, play what's not there.”
Miles Davis
Phil Weinacht turned me on to that quote in the Fall of 1977.  Meaningless at barely 18, but it's gained traction.  Phil directed the HSU jazz ensemble and was a good guy.  Got us to the Reno Jazz Festival where we did ok.
More recent takeaway is to know when to shut up, which in my profession is easier said than done.
This Buddha landed in Civic Center plaza last June, to stay through 2011.  Work is by a Shanghai sculptor Zhang Huan.  Doubt he intended to elevate the quality of oral argument in S.F. Superior and will have to ask Judge Busch sometime if  it has.
I love standing under this piece and looking up before court appearances.  It makes me better, reminds me to be quiet.  Any decent lawyer knows that the best argument is the one you never have to make, the judge got it from your papers and you just say something like:  "unless the court has specific questions, I will submit."
Course, its not always that easy.  Some folks (almost always men) will blather on about every point, real or imagined, and ya just gotta listen and watch.  See if the judge bites, or looks like he or she is biting, then tailor accordingly.  Busch never bites.  I will never forget just starting out and winning motion after motion in front of then Judge (now Justice) Lamden then having my ego maniac boss at the time come in on the fifth motion to show me how its done, and have an exasperated judge practically scream:  "sit down counsel, you won."  Less is almost always more, you don't need to rub the audience's face in it.
Now, try to find that balance in your workouts.
Nothing on Thursday, except some more shopping ourselves.
Friday, into sf , workout late like;
8 burpees pushups (2) to double24 suitcase deads
1+1-5+5 24 kg press ladder
5+5x2 sls w35lb plate
10 120lb lat pulls, isolate and focus.  Yes a machine, sometimes can be useful.
3x
10 32kg swings to 1+1 24kg TGU x 10
15/15 10 32kg swingsx10
200 heavy swings, feel it.
 Saturday, MH class, surprisingly fried from prior day and weak on left side plank.
Sunday, dog walk with Ian started out in heavy rain, clear later.
PM, want to hit ct class, but not gonna happen  Grow more lethargic as watch Raiders win and fold laundry.  Check twitter and ct has a tweet planning kettlebell blood bath.  Good visual, get your ass up, and go heavy.
10+10 32kg rows
10 24kg goblet squats
1+1-3+3 24 kg presses, to 1+1-3+3 28kg strict mp presses
5+5 single leg deads, 24kg
3x
Plan on 200 28 kg swings.  Hah.  Heavy rows and presses plus heavy swings on Fri and bells are slippery and grip is fried.  Shut it down after 100.
Monday, Great Pradeep class at 5:30, very happily drenched.
Tuesday, mind numbing stress and not enough food.  Wet beautiful night in Hayes Valley 30 minute ct class at 7:30; very happy to be back in studio with tiny powerhouse, its a 15/15 25 minute blast
ten minutes swings
ten minutes push press
five minute swings
Turn on radio heading north just in time to hear Roy Eisenhardt describe Michael Lewis' Blind Side as jazz improvisation on City Arts & Lectures.  Leaving space for the reader.  Don't feel you need to connect all the dots.  Respect audience intelligence.  Lewis self-deprecating, says style is a function of indolence and laziness.  Right, stop it.
Busy, stressful times; stay quiet and set up tomorrow.  

 

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

Bandwagon

“The fans sitting up there are helpless, they can’t pick up a bat and come down and do something. Their only involvement is in how well you do. If you strike out or mess up out there, they feel they’ve done something wrong. You’re all they’ve got. The professional athlete knows there’s always another game or another year coming up. If he loses he swallows that bitter pill and comes back. It’s much harder for the fans.”
Willie McCovey to Roger Angell, 1978
I never thought Stretch was the most articulate of folk, but he nailed it there, I think, it sounds right.  It's largely lost on me.  The closest thing to sacrifice I made for the Giants was choosing to go to a game at Candlestick in 1977 instead of going to hear Jean Pierre Rampal.  It was my 18th birthday and I'd spent all summer weeding the yards of the Tiburon wealthy listening to the Giants play.  Those were the days of Bill Madlock, Larry Herndon, Johnnie LeMaster and Bob Knepper.  I have regretted missing Rampal for years, but Jay let me drink beer for the first time supervised and I still remember the skunk taste of Heinekin, which I thought was actually good.  I have no idea who the Giants played or if they won.
I have been the worst sort of bandwagon fan.  All over downtown for the past month people have been dressed in Orange and Black.  T-Shirts and jerseys have been snapped up and green has exchanged hands.  I have contributed nothing, not even the "Let Timmy Smoke" T-Shirt given fleeting consideration.  The only dollars I spent that I would not have otherwise is the four bucks today on the 38 Geary; parking at Fillmore and taking Muni downtown after getting completely skunked on the Larkspur ferry early this morning.  It occurred to me as I watched the crowd resplendent that I have never purchased a team jersey or t-shirt of any sort.  Not for myself, nor as a gift.  I have owned Grateful Dead wear, Bob Marley, and Steve Earle.  I have had Guy Clark's Homegrown Tomatoes emblazoned on my chest, as well as Gillian Welch's sly lyrics.  I have bought Pink Floyd, Hendrix and Led Zep for the kids, perhaps even Slayer, and certainly the Beatles.  I have bought Monterey Bay Aquarium T-shirts ad nauseum, but not a single damn sports jersey.  The closest I can recall is the RKC sleeveless T I own that I bought along with my 32kg bell last February to show off my skeevy middle aged delts.  At least I can press that fucker now.

So there I was today at California and Montgomery in black Italian wool doubled pleated slacks and a pink dress shirt waiting for a parade.  I caught some shit for the pink shirt, but I do love this town and that alone was reason to turn out:
Cody Ross
 Brian Wilson, Lunatic

Buster Posey, don't know his politics but he looks like a young republican.


Pat Burrell



Andres Torres

It was a raucous crowd and it has been a wonderful time to be in this town.  I am no big baseball fan but people turning out, coming together, and forgeting the shit for awhile is a good thing.  Anything to postpone the pain of election day.
Sunday
Walk in the marsh with second son and first Labrador.
Tired and almost let it slip, but no, out back in pm for:
10+10 28kg rows
10 24kg Goblet squats
Presses, 5+5 20kg, 4+4 24kg, 3+3 28kg, 1+1x2 32kg.  All went well, no failed reps.
10 double bell deads, 28/32  132 lb deadlift is just too fucking easy and not sure why I even bothered except its an easy way to jack up the pounds moved.
3x
30/30 28kg swings, 20 x 6, had to drop to 24 gor 7-9 cause losing grip and back to 28 on last.  Ten total.
To Grandma's for Game 4.
Monday
Four miles, nada mas.
Tuesday
VO2 max, fast cause no time
16kg, 15/15 seven rep pace, x 52
plank work, sixty second front, 30 second sides, 3x, 25 sec rest between front and side.
Today
60 min Pradeep power class.  Smoking.
Parking lot calls and emails, buncha work, get home and immediate attention demanded.  This is the orange and black that sticks with:
It's been a blast, here is to next year; I will go to more games.

Sunday, October 31, 2010

Vaseline Machine Gun


"Men do not quit playing because they grow old; they grow old because they quit playing."
Oliver Wendell Holmes


Thursday
Long day and drop in with EH at the end.  They’ve settled LEW at 1:00 am, talked the client into a shitty deal but the lawyers are making out fine.  A cynical settlement and both JL and I comment that the judge should perhaps not approve.  EH starts it off slow, new trainer C plunks down beside me, she is a talkative sort and hope she can make it.  She is probably 30, big blue eyes and tattoos all over her back which I try not to notice as she wobbles in side plank next to me.
Friday
Long day, trolling downtown sf, feel like I should be in a short skirt and eight inch heels; a strange place to be.
Done by 4:00, and head in for late yoga.  Pradeep has two classes, 4:30 to 5:30, then 5:30 till 6:45.  It used to be 5:30 to 7:00 but hey, cut backs are everywhere.  The 4:30 to 5:30 is hard; very hard.  Bunch of core and push-up work and after 60 minutes drenched and fried.  Take a long drink and seriously consider stopping there, but don’t.  Class two comes in and he puts the hammer down for 60 minutes, then 40 minutes of release.  The 75 minute class stretches to 100, I don’t think he ever thought about the clock.  Thoroughly rung out; my towel and mat are soaked after 155 minutes. 

Go in Saturday am to drive Leo Kottke to the airport.  Leo is affable and we talk about his gigs, kids, skateboarding, scooters, emergency rooms, photo shoots in old porn studios, visiting prisons and being stuck.  He asks about why I am doing this; I tell him-he is impressed or at least amused saying simply: “that’s smart.” He shares his own stories of recharge and oh to be in one of those bars or hotel lobbies and have Leo come set up in a corner.  We keep talking at the white curb, he closes out with a story about being on a submarine driven into a pier twice and the noise it made.  It is clear he had fun too for 25 minutes and both of us left grinning.
Get home, Brigid planning for her teenage sleep over.  I stroll through a crowded Costo, multi-tasking in trying to download Vaseline Machine Gun to my phone.  ITunes has changed its licensing agreement.  Fifty five pages on an iphone screen, I press ok after the first and will hope for the best.  My credit card has expired and I am pissing off old folks who are buying Depends in volume, so I pull over in from of an Everest sized display of Honey Bunches of Oats so I can update my credit card info to download a tune I have not heard in twenty years.  I get Rose on a marsh walk late and watch White Tailed Kites hover over the mud listening to a makeshift play list of Leo, McMurtry, Gillian Welch and Steve Earle.  We get home and I help Brigid clean up.
Its 6:00 and I am warming pizzas for the masses thinking a VO2 max session, 25 minutes of snatches may happen.  Then I see the size of the teenaged boys coming in and quickly decide they are not leaving my sight.  Way too many hormones and way too much biomass.  There will be adult supervision; at least I will stay awake as long as I can.

Leo put Vaseline Machine Gun on Six and Twelve String Guitar which came out in the early 70’s.  I remember listening to it driving up Mt. Tamalpais when we should have been in school.  We rarely drove drunk, we were responsible truants if you look past the psychedelics.  I remember the cassettes I recorded from Nick Gill’s record collection in Berkeley 1982, staying up way too late with Leo and Lowell George (Thanks, I’ll Eat it Here).  I remember vividly plugging Leo into the walkman (they stopped making them last week) and skiing deep powder in the tight trees in the upper reaches of Taos Ski Valley in the early Spring of ’84, which is the last time I felt as beastly fit as I do now, though I would not last twenty feet in those trees today.  They are bigger and I am slower.
Truth is though, as clear as I remember it, as Leo says here: I don’t know that guy any more.  The music still sounds really good.
 

Thursday, October 28, 2010

Travels with Brigid

"I had seen so many begin to pack their lives in cotton wool, smother their impulses, hood their passions, and gradually retire from their manhood into a kind of spiritual and physical semi-invalidism. In this they are encouraged by wives and relatives, and it's such a sweet trap."
John Steinbeck, Travels With Charley

Indeed.  I watched Weeds last night with Brigid.  Then we watched Buffy the Vampire Slayer, the episode where Dracula gets eurotrashed.  We shut that down and start talking, she is reading Of Mice and Men and loving it, then we move on to East of Eden.  We watched the movie a few years ago, and she was riveted and picked up the book.  First literature ever saw her read.  Not like Ian, who goes nowhere without a big book in his pocket.  I would have put that down to James Dean, but that did not seem to be it.  So an old copy of Travels With Charley has been floating around the mess that is the family room for about a year and she picks it up.  She reads about it and sees it won the Pulitzer prize for literature; her eyebrows go up.  "I'd like to drive around the country in a camper with a dog and you," she says.  I can't think of anything I would love to do more.  I ask her to read me the first paragraph which these days is my favorite.  She does, stumbling over "senility;" I say yeah, as in senile.  She lights up: "oh, that's funny then."  Uh-huh.  We chat a bit longer, and it's nearly midnight so I shut it down, she says "goodnight, love you Dad," starts to scamper up the stairs.  She stops, reverses course and scampers back down to snatch Steinbeck of the shelf like Barry moving in fast to snag the last cookie.  Slays me. 

Thursday
Flying all day and race in fast for V02 max, 15/15 x 52 with 16kg at 7 rep pace.
Friday
Also a busy day, hour long MH class.  Right shoulder mildly hinkey from prior snatchfest.  He starts of with a rap about a class at another studio, guessing full of Castro beefcake, where all the guys were doing multiple multiples on their chaturanga's which MH says wears down the shoulders; at 55 he knows and at 51 I believe him.  So he had them taking their five breath rest in plank instead of downward dog.  Folks groaned but he said (no Castro pun intended) "no, you can cruise in plank, really."  And you can.  If you are going out at 100%, dropping back to 80%  works to reinvigorate - just enough extra oomph over the lunch hour.
Saturday, shuffling kids, working in the pouring rain.  Giants improbable run to the Show continues; this town is gonna be a blast this week.  No sweat.
Sunday, more rain and looking forward to ct at 4:30.  Ian advises that he is going on a hike with his friend, she shows up with nervous mother:  "you will be here, right, you are not going anywhere ?"  Guess not.  Settle for late walk in marsh with appreciative Labrador.

Monday.  In really early, hit gym by 7:00:
5+5 x 2 pushups to renegade rows, 55lb dumbbells
5+5x2 sls, bodyweight first, then 35lb plate
Presses, 5+5 20, 4+4 24, 1+1x2 32
10 squat to press, 90lb barbell
3x, shit load of press work which I felt today
30/30 20 24kg swings x 10, few sets of assisted pull-ups at break
Horrible, sad dinner.
Tuesday
early evening, four miles elliptical, bunch of bu press work.
Wednesday
hit gym during the early part of the first game of the 2010 Series, goes like
20/20 10  push ups x 8
10 24kg gs
5 pull ups, 22lb assist
5+5 double 20kg squat to press, the 5+5 singles
3x, ten slow push ups circuits 2/3
5+5 20kg windmills, 12kg low
2+2, 1+1 24kg tgu
Coach Dos circuit, 16kg bottoms up on cleans and presses, save last on left, no mas.  Five minutes straight work each circuit.
3x
Brigid comes in on ferry, we head up to Yoshi's to watch game and listen to Leo Kottke.  Giants score 6 in fifth and win 11-7.  Kottke is a genius, and toward the end of the set plays Corinne Corinna, and Little Martha, which Leo notes came to Duane Allman in a dream.  Brigid is into Leo, but she is tired and worn down.  Face plant upon arrival.
Getting away would be a very good thing; we did for a bit after short-changing her this summer.

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

Night Owls

"And hand in hand, on the edge of the sand,
    They danced by the light of the moon,
          The moon,
          The moon,
They danced by the light of the moon."
Edward Lear

I am not speaking figuratively here.  I am not talking about my rotten teenagers, who stay up until all hours on the weekends, wallowing in the wasteland that is premium cable.  I am not talking about those clients who email me at 3:35 a.m. (I am told, by marketing consultant, this is a good thing:  "they are up, can't sleep, and reach out to you.."  Yes they do, but better to reach over to the other side of the bed and maybe get laid instead of billed . . .)
I am not even talking about Edward Lear, though B loves this ditty.  I am talking about Bubo Virginianis.  I am talking stereo Great Horned owls under a good sized moon.  I am talking the bird the size of a twenty pound cat that flew off the telephone pole, just as I got the flash up, just as I dialed up the shutter speed and maxed out the ISO to a tolerable grainy effect while Rose gazed over the deserted movie theater parking lot and had to be called "off" of the popcorn bag holding the promise of a few stray kernels.  The "off" cost me the shot, but it's a good memory.

That was Tuesday night.  Everyone off at a dress rehearsal; I get in at 7:50 with Rose looking hopeful.  I am tired and cooked from a long day and a 100's workout, (see below) but cave to her brown eyes by 8:50 and take her out alone in the dark in VFF with a 22 ounce Sapporo left over from the bluegrass festival.  Marsh is a noisy place at night.  Pockets of ducks are mumbling and the perpetually pissed geese are hissing.  Rose is chasing up Black Crowned Night herons which fly off croaking and and Killdeer shriek as we approach.  VFF make this walk an entirely different experience.  I can feel every rock pebble or twig; not in an uncomfortable way, just connected.  Am also MUCH quieter and when walking over the matted dead grass of the south side straight shot back hardly make a sound.  Our sudden appearance scares up few small rabbits but Rose stays off, night time is dangerous enough for these critters without having to flee from a good-natured tail wagging Labrador.  Coming back the owls start up in stereo and get a long look at the bird on the left; bird on the right is invisible, just low soft sound coming out of the black.  The place smells good too.
Nothing Sunday.  Raining and lazy.
Monday.  Pradeep class late.  His Monday class is a killer and I love it.  It is just the mat and sweat in a packed studio but the vibe he creates is remarkable.  The whole class is jazzed before and after.
Tuesday, 60 minute volume workout, totals like this:
100 push ups
100 body weight box squats
100 24kg strict mp
100 walking lunges with twin 35lb dumbbells
200 24kg swings.
That took an hour and was, conservatively, 38,000 pounds, weighted lunges talking to me today.  Hello ass, it is sore.
Rubber hitting the road with lending institutions all day and get in for MH late.  Sore but he makes me bring it.  Oh yeah, and the Giants won.

Saturday, October 16, 2010

Sweet Emotion

"You talk about things that nobody cares
You're wearing out things that nobody wears"
Sweet Emotion, you know who. . .

In 1993 I listened to an interview with Mavis Staples who had just released a record, The Voice, produced by Prince.  She said that after about three minutes with him she knew she was in the presence of genius, which is saying something given her pedigree.
The same year he did a few shows at the DNA Lounge.  You can now stream them off of Wolfgang's Vault, which was what we, Ian and I, did this morning on our walk in the marsh; he is such good company these days.  The intro then rolling bass line then tight horn ensemble into You Sexy Motherf***er is fucking spine tingling.  Ian, who usually hates anything like funk, was totally caught up, though he was spinning so hard on his future plans that after Prince we did John Prine for two miles and he never complained.  Not through Sabu Visits the Twin Cities or Hello in There, or Bruised Orange.  That was a first.
This is a stressful time and need to stay and be present.  Notwithstanding the joy of throwing heavy iron balls around, the best thing I have done in the past three years is develop a consistent yoga practice.  Breathing deep and sweating it out on the mat is nothing but good and it is now essential.
So that was it Thursday.  Blast of a day mediating trust dispute, getting the parties to a settlement and saving the judge probably three days of trial time, having a ball.  Meet with client at 3:45 and finish late but enough time to duck into EH class; she plays the best music and lays me out.  Takes fucking 40 minutes to drive down Lombard starting at 6, erasing the glow.
Friday, in office by 8, bail at 4:15 and head in for 135 minutes of Pradeep.  Why one would go to a bar on a Friday evening instead of his classes is beyond me.  90 minutes in he has us in reverse triangle and twisting left to right, my weak side.  He hangs in and tries to guide but given cortisol levels and 90 minutes I am close to spent.  Give up trying to get the left hand outside the right foot, it is just a practice.  The other side is a cake walk.  Finish and roll down Market with clean-up calls onto the boat and north.
Get home and receive word that Brigid is at friend's house for night, after missing seven days of school with stress related migraines.  Over my dead body.  I call her tell her to be ready in 30, she sounds relieved.  Collect her and we watch Rush Hour II with B.
Today, she has tech from 9:00 to 1:00.  Drop her off, Ian and I spill into marsh with ecstatic labrador.  Listening to Prince and Prine his concern re Brigid is genuine and illuminating and very thoughtful.  We collect her, and head to Costco, they are thick as thieves and giggling.
He drops Aerosmith's greatest hits into the cart and at seven bucks I don't veto.  We head to Trader Joe's to complete shopping for the dinner Brigid says she is going to cook.  We listen to Sweet Emotion, Dude Looks Like a Lady and Love in an Elevator, which Ian seems to know a little too well.  We come home, unload the car and Brigid does face plant into the sofa and does not move for two and a half hours.  Ian helps put away without being asked, casting an occasional eye over his sister's prone form.
I am ready for a nap, but fuck that.  Go out at 4:30 like this:
10+10 28kg rows
10 20kg bootstrap squats
16/5 to 32/1 descending ladder, give up on the 16 after first circuit.  There is no point.  Move to 5+5 20, 4+4 24, 3+3 28, to 1+1x2 32.  The 28's go well, failed reps second circuit second 32 left, but fix it by third and it rockets up both reps.
3x
20 28kg swings to 1+1 28kg tgu x 5
30/30 20 swings 28kg x 5.
Rose is demanding ball play which we do till dusk.  Brigid wants to do dinner; I stay next to her, it is excellent.
Finish with Butch & Sundance after catching last two innings of NLCS; Giants victorious in game 1.  There will be a fall only over my dead body.

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

Balancing Act


"The only tyrant I accept in this world is the still voice within."
Mahatma Ghandi
 10/10/10, but I forgot Roses' sixth birthday on 10/9/10.  She forgave quickly as always.
Morning dog walk, cool to start but then hot fast so cruising Costco in a sweat-soaked black turtleneck, good look dude.
Into SF for first meet with Herr Krupp in years.  Supposed to meet Marina Green, but fleet week clogging up the north waterfront and eventually we end up at the playground on top of St. Mary's garage along with a large Chinese fair which meant a cheerful if quizzical audience.  He breaks out the clubbells, much work to do here if I wish to pursue.  We dial it back to flexibility drills and shoulder openers.  Tight shoulders are a continuing problem, which is one reason I want to pursue clubbells.  Casey is a master at breaking it down and we get my deck squats to a place I can work with.
Head up to CT class, what I remember went like this though probably not in this order:
10 mountain climbers.  Slow.  No momentum.
10+10 one arm downward dog to pump stretch, these felt really solid, much better than a few months ago
10 spider lunges
10 spider planks
10 dolphin to dolphin plank
10 deck squats
10 sls
10 shoulder stand crunches for five count
10 slow pushups, five count at bottom and top
10 20kg goblet squats, with ten count hold at bottom of each, by now dripping sweat and nearly losing handle.
1+1 x 5 24kg press, ten second hold at top of each
1+1 TGU's x 5  16, 20, 20, 24, 24
30/30 20 swingsx10, 20kg x 5, 24kg x 5.
Very very good class, boatload of work, little rest between and happily drenched at the end.  Northward text exchanges with 5 re 49ers really sucking.  They do, totally, it was worse than I could have imagined.
Monday, Indigenous people's day but really stressing 'bout Brig.  Drop Ian off and into marsh 7:40, by 8:45 multiple incoming, grounded in work.  Head into sf with Brigid, back to 3700 Cal. where have spent so much time.  The cafeteria smells exactly the same, the hallway feels the same.  Poor Brigid; much work to do.  Or is it adolescence preying upon the still voice within.  Stay tuned.
Into court Tuesday, feeling crappy in a bronchial way and just stressed.  Amazed looking back a year, how similar, except much stronger.  Done by 10:30, get the tax returns dealt with (finally) by 11:30, moderately lighter.  Leave at 4:00, think I'm gonna throw iron for 40 minutes, but the BART stars align and I can get to MH yoga instead.  Slow, easy class but just the right thing to do; iron can wait, breathing deep and hanging out in pidgeon drops my BP.  Client crises on the way up, but half hour of emails preserves status quo until am, then sit with Brigid watching Live Free or Die Hard, she is doing better I can tell.  Rose delighted to share sofa with me, 75lb puppy love goes a bit of a way.
Wednesday, grind, serious grind, all day.  Race home on 5:55, cook a really good dinner which is done by 7:30.  Out back in the dark and start throwing it down fast:
brief warm up, then 15/15, 7 rep pace x 50
25 minutes of straight snatches, the only potentially limiting factor is hand care but that goes ok.  Done by 8:05, and everyone is well fed.
It occurs to me that all is not exactly what it seems and reaffirms one of my firmest convictions, which is to trust my gut.  You are 51 and not stupid.