Ian Scott

 "It is a wise father that knows his own child."
William Shakespeare

The only thing I'll own is that to believe you "know" anyone is folly.  Sure there are signs, little cairns along the way; stacked piles of rocks on a scree slope; visible from a distance, ambiguous markers.
Ian turned seventeen Monday.  I have all these pictures of him as a boy, smiling, very very cute and very blond.  He is nothing like that now.  He is tall, lanky, square chinned and deep-voiced, painfully insecure, just like you were.  Find some solace in his desire to be with me; he likes to hang and laugh, sometimes, apparently, great, good job.  Is always up for a hike and a talk, listening to Hendrix in the marsh.  Things I could never fathom doing with Jay; makes me no better a father, know that for sure.  Daughters are easy in comparison.

Thursday, three miles, then drinking too much with client late.
Friday, hammered and feeling like shit.  Work from home and attend the District middle school track meet, Brigid shredding the competition in shot put.  About six, suck it up for a workout as follows:
20 push-ups, alternating one foot up.
Double 20kg clean and press ladder, 1-5
28kg rows, 10+10
5+5 single leg squats, GTG
3x
Go to second circuit and back feels like shit.  Stop.
Sat., three miles in am, trying to loosen up.  CT seminar at 4:30, gonna bail but she says come in and I do.  Back feels really hinky, but snatch/jerk routine feels ok.  Has her ex as co-captain.  Decent coach but abrasive one on one, wtf. 
Sunday, three miles.
Monday, three miles am.  Its Ian's-bday and he wants to be at Gamescape late, so gonna work out and catch a late boat, fucked back and all.
Pushups, 30/30, 10 per set x 8
5+5 single leg squats to box
20 body weight box squats to 5+5 24kg long push press
10+10 TRX split squats
x3
Not sure what to do, swings snatches out of question.
TRX Y, W, biceps curl, five each, 3x
Delt flys, 30lb dumbbells, legs up, 10.
10+10 60lb rows, bench
10+10 40lb dumbbell swings
10 70lb bicep curls, idiot work
x3
Stop at Delica for raw fish before 8:50 boat.  Try not to be old pervy guy; waitress is beautiful and charming.  Hanako, notices the old dog noticing; comes over, chats me up, free drinks, oh please come back - you have a nice smile.  You bet, wild horses and all that.  Get to Gamescape by 10, Ian wants to hang for another hour and we do.
Tuesday, three miles, no mas.
Today, three miles am, the gtg on single leg squats and jerks, trying to forget back.  Jerks feel good; JH comes over with client, complimentary.  Finally feeling like I don't need to re-learn the exercise every time, but back is still bad.
This afternoon, not ready for yoga, need to keep control
10+10 alternating 24 kg floor press to ten push-ups
10 16kg bootstrap squats
15+15 24 kg rows
15+15 walking lunges
3x
10 reverse pull-ups off of Smith machine
10 TRX rows
10 TRX bicep curls
5 neutral grip pullups, with 16 lbs, assistance flying up
3x.
Back down to boat, ball for the dog in bone chilling cold.